
Today, June 9th it would have been Robbie's 25th birthday. Every year is very different. When Robbie died, he was 3 weeks shy of his 6th birthday. For his 5th birthday, I (being the good "homemaker") for all my kids, had ALWAYS made their cakes. That year we were in the middle of settling into our house in Quakertown. So Robbie got a store bought CARVEL ice cream cake for his day. I remember so distinctly the drive home from the store. He sat in the front seat of the car, holding that boxed cake ever so proud. For my kids, that was a thrill. Sure mom baked these cakes that looked like buses, trains, dolls, you name it but "An ice cream cake". He didn't care that it was bought, in fact he was thrilled. I of course felt guilty for having "bought" a cake.
The first year after Robbie died, we didn't know how to celebrate his birthday. How does a family sit at the table on "his" day, when the one who you are celebrating is gone. So we went to the store and got a CARVEL ICE CREAM cake. We continued to do that for many, many years. Some years we didn't and on the years we did, we cried or laughed and ate it wishing him HAPPY BIRTHDAY.
It amazes me that he would be 25 today. Where has life gone? As you see by the title of my blog, I love Roses. Rob was my Rose so to speak. We planted a huge rose bush in our front yard one year in FL in memory of Robbie. That rose bush was as tall as the roof and yielded hundreds of flowers. It was sad to leave it.
Today, I went to the store and got the ice cream cake. It says Happy Birthday. Today, I bought a rose bush and planted it in memory of his 25th. As I looked at all the different colors to choose from, I saw this yellow one. It was bright and cheery, just as I imagine Robbie to be when I see him again at Heavens gate. His happy cupid bows mouth, a smile that made your heart sing. If I would have had enough money, I would have planted a rose bush for every year of his life that we have been blessed with and without. I will start with one. It's just the beginning of many to come.