Two days ago I was really down all day. As I drove home from work, the tears began to flow. I cried off and on the entire evening. Nick just looked at me. As I sat, hemming a dress for someone, I kept thinking about what it was that was making me so upset. I had just come off a week of excitement of having two new grandsons being born. They were healthy and their births were great. I continued to sob.
I realized then that we are fast approaching Mother's Day (May 13th). I have not liked Mother's Day ever since Robbie died. It is a day I would just assume forget. The day he was killed, I had gone to get my hair done - it was my Mother's Day gift from my children that year. It was when we got home from my picking the girls up from school and Robbie and Skippy up from Wanda's house that they all went out to play while I cooked dinner and then Robbie was killed.
Last week was so much excitement, this week I am experiencing a feeling of bitter-sweet joy. These two precious boys that were born last week are the first boys we have had in our family in 19 years. We are going to get to see them next week and we will see them on Robbie's death anniversary date. This holds not only joy but sorrow for us. I am looking forward to swooping them up into my arms and nuzzling my nose into their tiny necks.
The Lord has truly blessed us with these babies. Not only do their names hold special memories but they are proof that life goes on. If Robbie was here, I could imagine him as a proud uncle, loving them just as much as we do.
P.S. Tyler & Hunter will have Harley Davidson jackets from Granny & Gramps
5 comments:
Mom, I'm already emotional enough. You really know how to make someone cry like a baby. I love you and really look forward to you and dad coming to see us. You're going to love them. These two boys are the most precious cargo you will ever meet. Love you! Keep your head up.
thank you so much for sharing this precious entry with us! It truly shows your heart. I commend your ability to stand in the sorrow and not push it away but embrace it and feel those feelings. Your sorrow is because you love so deeply! I know your time with the new Langdon boys will be a sacred time...full of joy and healing.
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As for the slide shows. Go to Slide.com, up load your pics and GO! You will love it...totally self explainatory and it gives directions as to how to upload to your blog. Try a short slide show first like 5 pics to learn it and then GO TO TOWN!! MUAH to you!!!
Thank you Patti, Even though I only had 5 short years with Robbie, my life is filled with a lifetime of memories. Each new grandbaby born in our family is another piece of the memories for our lifetime. Thanks for the slide show info. I am excited to get started.
Brenda
They're beautiful, Brenda! It brings back memories for me and Robert. Tell Skippy to overlook the extra work involved in two babies and focus on the bonuses: double the love, double the hugs, double the kisses, double the blessing!
LOL! I just realized that those sweet children aren't twins! Amazing! You got two so close together! The double stuff still applies to granny and grandpa though!
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